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Originally posted by ladyphoenix:
well, here's back to earlier randomness...i have an update on my boyfriend situation, in case anyone cares [img]http://princess.cybrmall.net/ubb/smile.gif[/img]i think we had a breakthrough last night....we spent the weekdn together and went to six flags with friends yesterday....on the two hour ride home, somehow we got talking about our pasts andi endedup sharing with him just about the entire hell that was my childhood...by the time we got home, i was crying and in 'cold numb mode' that i go into whenever bad memories overwhelm me...we continued talking when we got up to the apartment and i ended up taking a bath to cool my body, because i had gotten badly badly sunburned to the point of developing sun poisoning (i'm still recovering today) and only felt comfortable in a tub of cold water....somehow the conversation morphed into our own problems and such and with me already being weakened emotionally from the talk about the past, i broke down and told him everything i have been doing the past week concerning him, about how i've talked ot people and they tell me not ot pressure him, and i am going crazy because i don't know where i stand and it hurts so much to hope everytime he does something sweet or nice that maybe he cares now, yet at the same time treating every day together as if it is our last, and how tired and sick of all this i am, but can he blame me, because he has put me in a situation where i can't do anythig but wonder and go crazy and that i am at the point wherei f he tries to break up with me again, i will just let him go because i can't take it anymore
and he just kind of listened to this all and then said something along the lines of 'Mel, you really need to get some sleep and calm down...and think of this, if you were only my friend, i wouldn't stay up until 2am next to a bathtub comforting you' and then went into the bedroom and laid down....
and i got mad....called him back into the room, and said that i was sick of this obscure crap and him saying things that are so easily interpreted as that he cares, but it is like he wants to leave himself an out to back out later,and it pisses me off, and if he cares for me as a girlfriend and such, then he should just SAY it and stop bullshitting me and stop driving me crazy....then i turned away from him and started drying myself off, still crying some.....
and suddenly he came up behind me, put his arms around me, and said, i QUOTE, "You are my girlfriend, and I care about you as my girlfriend"....un quote, then he hugged me real tight for a moment, went in the bedroom and went to bed and didn't say anything else about it, though he did cuddle up with me to fall asleep
for the first time in a while, i fell asleep last night feeling at peace [img]http://princess.cybrmall.net/ubb/smile.gif[/img]
there, my latest story, in case anyone cares [img]http://princess.cybrmall.net/ubb/smile.gif[/img]
I think Brian was saying actions speak louder than words. He has been doing everything to get it accross to you that he loves you. He may see words as just that, words. Anyone can say they love you, he was willing to show you that he loves you. I think he said it, only because you needed to hear it said. From what you have said, I would say that Brian loves you very much.
